Just Another Struggling Writer

Hello friends and welcome to another worked up week of writing. 

I have been spending a lot of time of late thinking about how to grow as a creator. Actually, I’m almost always thinking about that, but lately I’ve struck upon a particular idea and I can’t quite let it go until I give it a try. Which is funny, because if you asked me a year ago if I was interested in this type of endeavor I would have answered with an emphatic negative. 

I’ve grown a lot over the last twelve months, and, just as importantly, I’ve learned that a lot of conceptions I had about myself – my personality, my limits, my desires – have all been understood primarily through the lens of my depression and anxiety, and therefore are not necessarily entirely accurate. 

Whereas before I thought I was a preternaturally unambitious, even lazy, person with ideas grander than I could feasibly pursue given my energy and time constraints, I have since come to realize that I actually really love trying new things. Even if my projects don’t work out, I still have fun with it and enjoy the journey it takes me on and the things it teaches me. 

Does this sometimes mean I fail to follow through? Sadly, yes. But that just means I have something to practice, something to work toward, some improvement to strive for. And that is so much better than believing wholeheartedly that I am just fundamentally broken as a person. 

So, as I barrel toward this latest project which may or may not be doomed to failure, I am choosing to be proud of how far I have come and confidence that I can carry myself even farther. 

Until next time friends, may your motivation be plenty and your struggles be few!

Kerry Share