Just Another Struggling Writer

Hello everyone and welcome back to another workloaded week of writing.

Friends, last week was a bit of a whirlwind – but in an absolutely great way! From sunup on Monday til the time I switched off my light to go to bed last night (around midnight), I was hustling. Recording podcasts, scripting (and eventually) recording videos for the launch of my new Youtube channel, doing school work, reading more than I ever have in a single week, and, oh yeah writing.

And you know what? It felt fucking amazing.

Every morning I sat down with my planner and drew up my schedule for the evening hours – whether that be recording or editing, but things I have to be at my desk at home to do – as well as tasks I wanted to fit into my nooks and crannies during the day (lunch hour, etc.). Honestly, it felt a little overwhelming, and I didn’t finish the entire list most days. 

But the thing that was most profound was that when I got home after my day job, I didn’t stop. I didn’t climb into bed like I would have in weeks and months past. I didn’t put it off for another day. I didn’t make excuses. I just went ahead and did what I set out to do. 

I kept thinking that eventually I would burn myself out. And, to be fair, I did feel like I hit a wall a couple of times. In those moments, I allowed myself to ease off the gas a little bit and take a break from staring at my computer. By Sunday evening, when I was satisfied I had done everything I wanted to do (creatively speaking at least) for the week, I got into bed and watched a movie with my kids without an ounce of regret that I hadn’t done enough.

All told it was an incredibly instructive week. I learned so much about my capabilities and my limits, how best to direct my energy and when to recharge, and most importantly, that I can do this. I can go all in on my goals and dreams and actually… feel good about it? I think that’s the biggest revelation that came out of this last week: not only did everything feel like a good use of my time and energy, but also the inclination to get down on myself about it was absent.

Because of my history with anxiety and depression, specifically as they relate to my penchant for starting projects and failing to follow through with them, consistency is going to be critical. One solid week is a great base to build from. Now, it’s up to me to keep the momentum going. 

And that’s my motivation this week. 

Until next time friends, may your motivation be plenty and your struggles be few!

Kerry Share