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Monday Motivations; Ace of Pentacles

Hello friends and welcome to another wacky week of writing.

I am slow to change. I have always known that to be true. My longstanding anxiety and depression has more often than not driven me to find comfort in old, familiar habits, even the ones that are terrible for my long term well being.

Last night I realized that this extremely busy period at my day job is not likely to dissipate any time soon. In fact, between the labor shortage and the natural uptick in business my firm has seen over the last two years, things are probably only going to get worse.

The truth of the matter is I’ve been waiting for things to “go back to normal” before launching any long term ambitions. Oh, sure, I’ve paid lip service to getting back into my writing habit, and I definitely took a major leap last year when I fell into my freelancing gig. But, if I’m being honest, I unintentionally cornered myself into a holding pattern these last twelve months, by waiting for a moment in time that will likely never come.

I’ve been stuck in a state of inertia, but last night’s realization forced me to ask myself whether I would actually be happy if things went back to the way they were.

And the answer is no. I don’t want to go back. I want to move forward. And that’s this week’s motivation.

Kerry Share

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Monday Motivations; A Day Late and a Dollar Short

Good morning friends and welcome to another exciting week of writing.

Yesterday was an off day for me. From start to finish I just didn’t feel like myself. Mondays, weirdly enough, is usually when I’m at my most motivated (hence this blog series) and freshest, and I usually feel ready to attack the week. Not so yesterday and I’m still not sure why. Couple that with a tough parenting situation in the evening, and I pretty much lost the whole day.

I’m obsessed with time. How much of it I have, whether or not it’s being spent wisely, the whole nine years. I almost think if it like money, and, like money, I worry that if I am not using it in the most efficient way possible then it is a waste.

Bearing that in mind, days like yesterday are tough for me to swallow. In times gone by, they’ve managed to ruin my entire week. But I’m working on getting better about that, mostly by reminding myself that operating at peak efficiency at all times is something we ask of machines, not people. That I’m not just a vessel of productivity, but a human who is allowed and sometimes has off days.

So that’s my motivation this week: not getting too down about not hitting my word count yesterday and just focusing on what I can do today.

Until next time my friends!

Kerry Share

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Self-Promotion and Anxiety: An Extreme Sport

Hello friends and welcome to another so-anxious-I-kind-of-want-to-throw-up edition of Just Another Struggling Writer. I’m just another struggling writer.

Friends. Pals. Fellow writers.

This week I learned that two months ago, with little fanfare or promotion, or even a little note to yours truly, my first freelance project was published.

Now, I know I’ve talked little about my freelancing gig, partially because I wasn’t sure of how much I could or should say, so I feel compelled to explain now that I am currently engaged to write romance novellas for a subscription service called Scribd. Though romance is not my usual genre, I have found the work to actually be pretty fun, and I am enjoying it a lot.

That said, I do not begrudge my publisher’s lack of interest in boosting this first release. As the first novella I’d written and the first romance I sought to publish, the manuscript, I am sure, belies some growing pains. Further as I am an unproven author with no platform to speak of, it is not difficult to see why I was not afforded promotional resources.

However, that means that, if I want to get eyes on my work and potentially grow a platform, promoting is being left entirely up to me. As someone with pretty hefty anxiety, this is a task that, while I know is necessary, I’m petrified of undertaking. Showing people my work means opening myself up to the (damn near guaranteed) possibility that someone will hate it. Someone will hate the way I write, and, the anxiety brain tells me, therefore they will hate me personally, and they will trash me online and I will never recover from it emotionally.

But, nervous to the point of nausea though I may be, I am also perfectly aware that people not liking my work simply comes with the territory of being a writer. And so, to find an audience that does like my writing, I need to put in some work that might chafe at my anxiety a bit (read: a lot). It’ll be doubly important when the exclusivity period is up and I’m able to sell it myself, so learning how to promote myself without apology or, dare I say, shame is critical if I want my career to continue to grow.


To that end, if you’ve enjoyed my blog and are interested in reading some of my work, you can find my romance novellas at Scribd: here!

The first (and so far only) story out is called The Dutiful and the Disfavored. It’s Regency era and while I freely admit it’s not my best work (as I was still trying to find my footing in the genre), I would still really love if yall read it. If Regency isn’t your bag, don’t worry! I have strayed all over the romance spectrum, including suspense, fantasy, and straight contemporary. As soon as those stories are out I will of course share them here!

Meanwhile, check out The Dutiful and the Disfavored, or please pass the link on to someone who might enjoy it. You’d really be doing this struggling writer a huge solid.


Alright, that’s enough of that I think.

Tomorrow marks the first day of Prep-tober, and I’m honestly really sad, as it looks like for the first time in four years I will not be able to participate in NaNoWriMo. I will be writing, of course, but I think that my freelance schedule makes it just too tough to also try and get 1666 words toward a second project every day as well.

Although, shit, knowing me I’ll probably try it anyway.


Until next week my friends, may your writing be plenty and your struggles be few.

Kerry Share

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